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The Black Mug

Today I threw away

the only gift you gave to me

it was a black mug

the kind that changes colors when you pour something hot in it

I remember when you gave it to me

with the biggest smile

it was one of the only nice things you did for me

so I kept it

for the longest time

not willing to let go

of the fact

that terrible people

can still do nice things

but I threw it away today

in hopes that ridding myself

of traces of you in my belongings

could help me rid myself

of the traces of you in my brain

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Google Search History

October 5, 2016

How to talk to cute boys

Do I like him?

October 12, 2016

Does he like me?

October 13, 2016

How to ask a guy out

How to date someone out of your league

October 16, 2016

How to deal with rejection

How to be just friends with someone you like

October 21, 2016

How to get out of the friend zone

October 30, 2016

Why does this hurt so much?

November 1, 2016



November 5, 2016



November 6, 2016

Why didn’t he go out with me when he says he likes me?

Do guys not like being asked out by girls?

Why did he keep me waiting?

Did I harm his sense of manhood?

November 8, 2016

What to do when your boyfriend votes for Trump

Can feminists vote for Trump?

November 9, 2016

How to dress on a date

How to act on a date

Is it normal to have sex on the first date?

How to turn down sex

November 10, 2016

Plan B

Nearest Planned Parenthood

Is sex supposed to hurt the first time?

November 17, 2016

Why isn’t he texting me back?

Am I being ghosted?

How to get a guy who is ghosting you to talk to you

December 1, 2016

Why do I feel so bad about having sex?

How to deal with shame

Should I tell people I slept with the wrong guy?

December 17, 2016

Dealing with a breakup

What to do after you see him with someone else

December 20, 2016

Why did he never call after we had sex?

Is ghosting abusive?

Emotional abuse

January 1, 2017

New start

How to start over after a bad relationship

January 12, 2017

Was it consensual?

If I said never said yes or no does it count as consent?

What to do after having sex you didn’t want

Do rapists ghost their victims?

January 14, 2017

Rape definition

Sexual abuse definition

What to do if you think you’ve been raped

January 20, 2017

Reporting rape process

Sexual assault lawyers

January 25, 2017

Should I report rape?

Do rape victims ever get justice?

What if I’m scared?

January 30, 2017

Will he rape someone else?

Do I have a responsibility to report rape?

January 31, 2017

How to report a crime today









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Our Daughter

When I see her

She’s got her mother’s looks

But her father’s eyes

Her mother’s laugh

But her father’s humor

Her mother’s wit

But her father’s charm

With both their smarts,

Both their care,

And both their faith.


Sometimes I regret

that she never got to be.

I think she’d be lovely.

But then I think

he would hit her

same as me.


And I’m glad she’s safe

in my imagination.





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Loveliest Lies

I don’t care what was true or not

Just come back

We can hurt together and hold each other

Until we’re whole again

Because you spin the loveliest lies

They make me stay

Even though I know

The truth is in your “jokes”

So although your taunts– the truth– habitually destroy me

I need your loveliest lies to survive

Even though you never speak direct truth

I see nothing but your pain

Pain I need to heal

So just come back

I don’t care if it’s abuse or not


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You told me once

that people saw visions of you

with a halo

and wings

But darling

I see visions too

and do you know

the only time I’ve seen a demon

was when I thought of you?

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My Demon

They follow my demon like the wise men followed the star

From miles,

they collect to watch him,

my demon,

the creature of my nightmares

And they fall at his feet


Falling like I did

straight into Hell

but they don’t know



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Dear Daddy

After all the insults you hurled at me

Like Zeus hurling lightning bots at his enemies

I still think

The worst thing you ever said to me

Was that boys will be boys